Over dinner tonight, it was brought to my remembrance that I actually had an elder brother.

For some reason, we have never crossed path and little was mentioned about him.

Somehow tonight, for the first time in my life, I felt a sense of closeness to him. I don’t even know how to explain that. I have never felt that way and I know it is not my imagination. How can I imagine up being close to someone I have never met?

 

He could have been 23 this year, probably pursuing his dreams… And greatly admired by his little sis.

He could have fended for me when I fought with the Malay kids at the playground.

He could have warned me of the funny tricks of guys. He probably could have used some of them himself.

He could have been good-looking with a lovely character, the guy of every girl’s dream. Girls would probably want to befriend me just to know him.

He could have had faith in everything I do… No matter how many times I have failed and fallen.

 

And now as tears stream down my face, I know he is above watching over me as always. Probably smiling and thinking what a silly sister he has.

 

Whatever it is, this special moment tonight is still incomprehensible and is certainly beyond logic in the natural realm.